Tuesday, June 27, 2023

Sukh

 These days I am fascinated and longing for one word. that is Sukh.

انسان زندگی سکھ کی تلاش میں گزر دیتا ہے . مگر سکھ کیسے ، کب اور کہاں ملتا ہے ؟ سکھ کا احساس دِل کو بہت آرام دیتا ہے . زُبان سے نکلا  یہ لفظ دِل کو ٹھنڈک پہنچاتا ہے… چاہیے وہ گھڑی دو گھڑی کے لیے کیوں نا ہو . اِس زندگی میں مجھے بھی سکھ کی تلاش ہے . بچپن میں کہیں کھو گیا تھا یہ احساس . . پڑھائی میں ، ذمےداریوں کو نبھانے میں . . روزی کمانے میں . . خاندان کو پالنے میں . . جوانی کی ساری محنت اسی لیے ہے کہ بڑھاپا سکھ میں گزر سکے . . مگر سکھ تب بھی ملے گا کہ نہیں اِس کا مجھے معلوم نہیں .


Dated: 27-Jun-2023

Thursday, June 01, 2023

Cheers… to all the friendships I lost…

Okay, it is time for me to write something. I need to put my thoughts into writing. A few days ago, I watched Shahrukh's video in which he mentioned that he doesn't know how to make friends. This reminded me of my own experiences with friendships and the friends I have lost over time. I can completely relate to what he said because I also struggle with making friends. And even when I do make friends, I find it challenging to maintain those friendships for a long time.

In dealing with friends, I have been quite immature. I have often abandoned my friends based on temporary emotions, without considering the long-term consequences. Sometimes, the pain caused by a friend hurts so deeply that it becomes hard to forget. It can take me years to heal from such hurt. Strangely, once I heal, I tend to forget the reasons behind the pain. Instead of trying to resolve conflicts with my friends, I have chosen to walk away from them. However, I am now realizing that this is not the right approach. I should make an effort to keep my friends and work on resolving any conflicts that may arise.

At times, I feel that I am the only one making an effort to keep the friendship alive, while the other person does not reciprocate. But perhaps that's just how friendships are. We need to hold on to them and not let them slip away. It may be challenging to reconnect with old friends whom I have distanced myself from, but if I get the chance to mend those friendships, I will definitely take it.

It is important to treat people with kindness and not lose our friends over trivial matters. If someone wants to leave, we should let them go. And if they want to come back, we should have a big heart and welcome them back with open arms.

So, today I am making a promise to myself. I will not lose any more friends from now on. I will try my best to keep my friendships alive and make an effort to nurture and cherish them.


Dated: 1-Jun-2023

Friday, March 10, 2023

2022: A year in review – Emotions, Dreams and Stress

It's March 2023, and I realise I haven't written down my 2022 recollection. I was very consistent with my blogs in the last few months of 2022, but somehow, I forgot to write about 2022 itself. Allow me to begin.

I began the year 2022 in Lahore. I took a leave of absence from work for 8–9 weeks. In my professional career, that is the longest work break I have ever taken. At the time, my brother and sister were also in Lahore. We hadn't seen each other in ages. We had some quality time together. During that trip, I made the decision to start building on my plot. My lifelong dream has been to own a home in Lahore. I employed an architect. Before deciding on the initial layout of my house, I visited several model homes.

But then something bothered me. My wife informed me of a court case that I was previously unaware of. With that news, all the excitement of the trip vanished, and there were a few emotional breakdowns. One of my friendships(?) got broken. At least, I thought we were friends but the other guy didnt think like that. Anyway, before my return flight, I was diagnosed with COVID. I had yet to finalise a builder for my house, so I rushed to do so.

At the Lahore airport, an incident occurred, and security personnel discovered bullet shells in my bag. My son collected these at his uncle's wedding, and my wife kept them in a bag. I was already experiencing mixed emotions, was exhausted and sick from COVID, and was prepared for anything. I would not have resisted even if they had imprisoned me. They did, however, release us. I boarded my plane and took off for Sydney.

On the same day I arrived in Sydney, a recruiter contacted me and invited me to apply for a contract position at NAB. I reluctantly agreed to apply for the position. Now that I've decided to build a house, I need to start saving money, and the contract job's daily rate was very good. I received the job offer and chose to accept it. I sadly resigned from Westpac. Saying goodbye to Westpac was difficult. It was my longest job. But I understood, aside from a good salary, Westpac provided no benefits to my career. To stay competitive and advance professionally, I must seek out new opportunities. If given the option, I would have stayed at Westpac for the rest of my life. However, I missed my previous colleagues who have left Westpac in the last few years, and Westpac wasn't the same without them. I started my new job at NAB, and it progressed smoothly through the rest of the year.

I was concerned about my mother's health in the first few months of 2023. She had stones in her gallbladder. Even though they were surgically removed in December 2022, one of them remained, causing problems for her. She had to have another surgery. Everything went well, and she recovered quickly, thanks to Allah.

In October, I went to the Gold Coast with my family and had a great time with my kids.

The house construction had begun in April and was going well. The builder eventually changed his mind, halted construction, and started giving excuses. The fool in me had already paid all the bills in advance. I didn't have enough money to finish the construction by myself. It was a difficult situation for me. The grey structure could not be finished. My father proposed that we use his money to complete the remaining grey structure work. I planned a trip to Lahore for the end of December and was in Lahore in the last week of December.

In a nutshell, 2022 began with emotion, progressed through dreams, and concluded with stress.

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