Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost...

 These days I am fascinated and longing for one word. that is Sukh. انسان زندگی سکھ کی تلاش میں گزر دیتا ہے . مگر سکھ کیسے ، کب اور کہاں ملتا ہے ؟ سکھ کا احساس دِل کو بہت آرام دیتا ہے . زُبان سے نکلا  یہ لفظ دِل کو ٹھنڈک پہنچاتا ہے… چاہیے وہ گھڑی دو گھڑی کے لیے کیوں نا ہو . اِس زندگی میں مجھے بھی سکھ کی تلاش ہے . بچپن میں کہیں کھو گیا تھا یہ احساس . . پڑھائی میں ، ذمےداریوں کو نبھانے میں . . روزی کمانے میں . . خاندان کو پالنے میں . . جوانی کی ساری محنت اسی لیے ہے کہ بڑھاپا سکھ میں گزر سکے . . مگر سکھ تب بھی ملے گا کہ نہیں اِس کا مجھے معلوم نہیں . Dated: 27-Jun-2023

Okay, it is time for me to write something. I need to put my thoughts into writing. A few days ago, I watched Shahrukh's video in which he mentioned that he doesn't know how to make friends. This reminded me of my own experiences with friendships and the friends I have lost over time. I can completely relate to what he said because I also struggle with making friends. And even when I do make friends, I find it challenging to maintain those friendships for a long time. In dealing with friends, I have been quite immature. I have often abandoned my friends based on temporary emotions, without considering the long-term consequences. Sometimes, the pain caused by a friend hurts so deeply that it becomes hard to forget. It can take me years to heal from such hurt. Strangely, once I heal, I tend to forget the reasons behind the pain. Instead of trying to resolve conflicts with my friends, I have chosen to walk away from them. However, I am now realizing that this is not the right appr

It's March 2023, and I realise I haven't written down my 2022 recollection. I was very consistent with my blogs in the last few months of 2022, but somehow, I forgot to write about 2022 itself. Allow me to begin. I began the year 2022 in Lahore. I took a leave of absence from work for 8–9 weeks. In my professional career, that is the longest work break I have ever taken. At the time, my brother and sister were also in Lahore. We hadn't seen each other in ages. We had some quality time together. During that trip, I made the decision to start building on my plot. My lifelong dream has been to own a home in Lahore. I employed an architect. Before deciding on the initial layout of my house, I visited several model homes. But then something bothered me. My wife informed me of a court case that I was previously unaware of. With that news, all the excitement of the trip vanished, and there were a few emotional breakdowns. One of my friendships(?) got broken. At least, I though